I feel warm.

I’m being real stupid.

I guess I do deserve all of this.

Everything is so slow.

This is seriously not a good week. It’s only been two days but from how things are going on it’s going to be a long week.

An old man came up to Ryan, Erick, Kevin, Mark, and I yesterday when we went to go buy fries. He offered money. Like straight up from his wallet. He asked if we were hungry and we needed money. It was hella awkward. Yeah sure he was generous but there was something that was telling me to not take any of it. So I didn’t. I guess it’s the right choice, I would have felt bad. Plus it was hella wierd. Kevin said it was a gift from God HA. I don’t really know, but I think that was one of those life tests. I don’t know. I thought I was a better person from that situation but things went fucking downhill. Haha.

I A M F U C K I N G U P .

Not just school, but everything I guess.

So today… I seriously have no fucking idea what just happened in the past 2 hours. I really don’t. One minute Pham, Ryan, and I were talking. The next Pham is picking a fight with me. He’s still serious about it too! He texted me 15 minutes ago about meeting him at the Subway after school and getting down. Okay really, i’m not stupid to seriously go there to meet him and get my self fucked up. Haha. Yeah okay call me a pussy i’ll tell him the same shit about myself. It’s fucking stupid how something small reaches to the point where it’s a fucking bigass issue.

We were talking about random shit he said something, so like always we get to that part where we say shit about each other. So I was joking around and slapped him. I guess I didn’t know my own strength and slapped him hella hard on accident. It was really out of fucking joke, but I guess he didn’t take it that way. The fuck would I want to start shit with my friend? Eventually he got more and more heated and he started talking and talking and edging me to go somewhere so he can have his way at me. (sounded homo by the way I typed that)

I got enough of it so I said something, so he went up to me and slapped the shit out of my binder when I was doing homework. I went after him I guess. I think I shouldn’t have but oh well, I have my anger issues too. I shoved him to the fence but didn’t really try taking a blow at him? Half way I noticed I was still holding on to my led pencil when everything was happening, and I guess I accidentally cut him. I only did what I did, to tell him to calm the fuck down. It was ridiculous. You guys should have been there to see what’s going on.

I guess it’s my fault? But I really don’t understand how someone can get heated that fucking easily. I guess i’m telling my side of the story but I swear I didn’t try to cut him. The fuck is that shit?

Anyways tomorrow is going to be a long day, and i’m sure to get my shitted on with stares at lunch and after school.

I bet people think i’m the bad person out of this. Can’t blame them, everyone loves Pham.

Yey Ron, you fucked up.

Irritated.

I’m too tired to blog, so i’ll probably do it before school tomorrow.

I noticed that the song Warp 1.9 is fucking spreading around here. It’s fucking annoying to me now. I can’t stand listening to that shit anymore.

I’m going to give myself a do over tomorrow, and hopefully I can give you answers tomorrow… Other than the ions test, I don’t think it’s going to have a hard day of school until Thursday.

I just need to relax and re-collect all of the positive energy I had in me yesterday.

HERE I FUCKING GO AGAIN.

I fucking need a psychologist or some shit. Maybe you actually noticing and talking to me for once. I mean things are different right? Shouldn’t shit like this be different to? I don’t even think you care right now. What the fuck is wrong with me. I’m trying to do something impossible. All sense of gravity just fucking came crashing at me in a small amount of time. Wow.

Help me.

I don’t understand.

How the fuck do I suddenly lose that fucking rush? How did I lose all of that confidence? How the fuck did I lose the fight?! Fucking balls.